So, here's to new beginnings...

Hello ladies and gentlemen. Welcome and beware. Finally time for me to be a little bit more open and carefree. Time to let out what I'm really feeling inside. So, here goes nothing.

I guess if you want to call this my new beginning, that would probably be pretty appropriate. I got fired today. Yep. Worked there for almost three years. Too long if you ask me. But I was holding out in hopes to find a local job. You see, my old job is over an hour away from my house. Why? Well, you see, to break it down as simply as possible... I moved in with my boyfriend Eric in 2011. We were living with his dad. A whole bunch of drama went on for about two years so we were quite anxious to get the hell out of that situation. So we did. We moved to an area close to both of our families. A two bedroom, one bathroom single wide. We thought it was awesome. It soon turned into a sinking hole of debt. So now I live back at home, and so does he. I kept my job, which is over an hour away, because he didn't have one. It was the only money coming in. Well part of the drama was that I couldn't afford insurance at one point...blah..blah..blah, and now my car has no tags. Great.

Well yesterday, my Grandpa's truck that I had been driving to and from work started acting funny, so I called out. Then I was running a tad late this morning. Well upon calling to speak to a manager, I find out that I had been taken off of the "floor chart". Ouch. So I call back this afternoon, hoping for a God-send, but no. Elliot says, "I don't think so. I think I've had enough of you." Really? Okay. Cool. Thanks "Boss Man". Thanks for screwing me; kicking a girl when she's down. Awesome. So, now, after letting the tears fall, I have come to the conclusion that God has a bigger plan for me. He knew I was stuck in a dead end job that was too far away for me to truly benefit from. So here I sit, thanking him, but still holding on to doubt. I can only hope that things will finally start to look up. I didn't have the courage to bite the bullet. Maybe this is God's way of stepping in. I can only keep praying and hoping that answers will come. I must be patient, though it is a strong suite I am lacking. I think God is trying to teach me strength and wisdom by making me build myself back up. It's going to be tough, but I know I can do it.